Well i guess i should start out by saying a little about myself. Well I am a 25 year old female, Married with 2 children age 6 and 7 months. My husband have been married for over a year. My son who is 6 is with a different father and still lives in Arizona, which is where i am from originally. I moved to Canada to be with my now husband. It really has been a bit of a culture shock moving to a much smaller city from a much larger hustling and bustling city. I was very independent at home. I was a single mother for so long that i learned how to do pretty much everything on my own, by myself. I had a full time job i went to school full time and i took care of my son. I had my own car, i had my own place. I paid my own bills, if i wanted something, i went and got it. The differences between here and there are night and day.
Its somewhat of a culture shock to be here when so much is different here then it was in AZ. I feel like Ive taken steps backwards in life instead of taking steps forward. I am 25 years old and i should be pretty settled in life and yet i still feel like im 18 and trying to figure it all out. Its like i sit back and am like "what do i want to do when i grow up" the only thing is.... I'm already a "grown-up", so why am i still wondering what im going to be and or do in life?
I find myself wondering what my life would be like if some of the choices ive made in the past i hadnt made. Or some of the things that i have pushed away or let go if maybe i should have thought more about the consequences of my actions.
